Do you believe the universe, God, or some larger benevolent energy is working behind the scenes on your behalf?
If I’m being honest, this is something I always trust is happening for others, but not for little ol’ me. Personally and professionally I’ve had a series of disappointments that have brought me to my knees. As much as I can seem pollyanna on the outside, and often truly am, I too, have dark thoughts that can overtake me.
This is a natural part of life. Without darkness we could not see the light, but damn, the tunnel can sometimes seem overwhelmingly hopeless. If we avoid the darker feelings this can actually make the tunnel longer and take us farther away from happy. I have a lot of tools that I turn to and a few trusted healers and friends that can handle my ugly while helping me shift.
As an entrepreneur, I’ve had a lot of beautiful things that I’ve worked on that have seen no traction or have had the content completely erased. I’ve heard no more than I’ve heard yes. I’ve had so much radio silence and crickets I often wonder who the heck I’m talking to and what even is the point.
The story we attach to these moments carries more weight than the moments themselves. This is where resilience, your ability to sit with discomfort, and your level of self-awareness serve as superpowers.
I learned something powerful about this recently after a few more professional things I was excited about just vanished. My gut was punched. I questioned my worth, my value, and if I’m really cut out for this. I gave myself a couple of days to feel all my feelings, but then something wonderful happened.
The old recording of a story I know so well changed. Instead of beating myself up after all of this, I thought: “I wonder what God is opening up for me in this?” This story itself felt lighter in my body and created a sense of possibility in my brain. It could not have happened had I avoided or bypassed my emotions.
When that new story anchored in, my outer circumstances changed. God showed me that He was working on my behalf and what he was opening up my time for: something more aligned, more impactful and more fun for me.
Life still isn’t where I want it to be, but this important clue wasn’t lost on me.
If you’re going through a hard time right now and surrounded by darkness, know you are not alone. If you want to be met where you are or you’re ready to change your story, I’d love to support you [email protected].
